Nervous Awakening

So its today... already. As usual I have too much on my plate, why do I keep doing this to myself? A thesis, a full time job, a side job (www.aidaeology.com) and volunteering as a web designer for a non-profit organization (www.maaf.ca). It's never enough, deep down my fear of not progressing, not moving forward, internally it forces me to take on so much that I can't stop to breathe, I can't stop to read, to catch the moments, always wondering why I'm losing sleep. So today I anxiously waiting to get an offer on a bigger proposal, --sigh when will I learn? I want it, want is so badly, but one more thing is going to make my life incredibly over-demanding, and still I am yearning to have it all, to have everything. Forever hungry.

Arabian Heat

singing
facing east
canary sweet
arabian heat
is everything
so is my soul
dispersing
with desert sands
i'm making
arabian heat
from me

drums always bring me
back to you

beat beat
move my naked feet
coming home
shake shake
hips sway slowly
with the desert wind
(let it take)
carry me

dancing
facing east
body trembling
arabian heat
is everything
so is my rhythm
moving
with desert sands
i'm twirling
arabian heat
around me

drums always bring me
back to you

beat beat
move my naked feet
coming home
shake shake
hips sway slowly
with the desert wind
(let it take)
carry me

crying
facing east
ears hear the wind speak
arabian heat
is everything
so is my heart
listening
with desert sands
i'm feeling
arabian heat
haunt me

drums always bring me
back to you

beat beat
move my naked feet
coming home
shake shake
hips sway slowly
with the desert wind
(let it take)
carry me

song of devotion
watch me
song of devotion
haunt me
song of devotion
call me east
with every beat

Quote from Alfred D Souza

"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin - real life. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life." --Alfred D. Souza

OPEN YOUR EYES PEOPLE, YOUR LIFE IS HAPPENING...annnddd SCENE.

(director voice in background):
"that was great people, we got alot of raw emotion there, good work everybody, nice portrayal (your name goes here), hell'uva job buddy, you totally owned this movie, I can't believe it, this film is going to be a hit, its gonna have everything, birth, struggle, life, love, tears, loss, death -totally oscar worthy" ;) --courtesay of Aida's twisted humour.

Poppy Monopoly

In recent news, The Royal Canadian Legion has threatened to sue PEACE activists over the use of white poppies! Apparantley unbeknowst to the rest of the world the poppy or better known Papaver rhoeas ; a showy flower, borne one per stem, belonging to the poppy family (and comes in yellow, white, pink, red and blue) was developed, created and designed by the Royal Canadian Legion and not God as we know it.

The story goes that after John McCrae's poem In Flanders Fields was published in 1915 the poppy became a popular symbol for soldiers who died in battle. Three years later an American, Moina Michael, was working in a New York City YMCA canteen when she started wearing a poppy in memory of the millions who died on the battlefield. During a 1920 visit to the United States a French woman, Madame Guerin, learned of the custom. On her return to France she decided to use handmade poppies to raise money for the destitute children in war-torn areas of the country. In November, 1921, the first poppies were distributed in Canada.

So at what point did the poppy become a trademark and property of The Royal Canadian Legion?? It seems to me that it's just a symbol that's been used over time and NOT just by the Royal Canadian Legion, in memory of the fallen war heroes.

Someone should warn Arnold in California, whose state flower is the golden poppy (Eschscholzia californica) that the The Royal Canadian Legion is coming to stomp out his flowers.

Hopefully none of the "Ribbon" organizations will pick up on this trend. Can you imagine what kind havoc will ensue when the people behind the Red Ribbon Project, who use a RED RIBBON as a symbol in support of the fight against AIDS wake up and realize WHOA?!?!? Yellow Ribbons? Blue Ribbons? White Ribbons? Purple Ribbons in support of the end of all interpersonal violence? the AUDACITY!!

ByeBye Birdie

bye bye birdie
your hair was often loose
your eyes were often mellowed to me
what sweet voice that talked
slow & pleasantly
bye bye birdie
i shall never see you again
my friend
but then all sweet souls were meant to fly away
heavan's angels never were meant to stay
with me.
so I say
bye bye birdie
as long as you remember me
I'll be happy
if your happy
then say goodbye and
spread your gentle wings.

I hate the cold. Cold is an unnecessary Evil. I don't understand why man's predecessor's ever settled in cold country. Why would you settle in frikin' Canada when South America is sooooo large. Every winter I ask myself, "What are you still doing in Canada?????"

Christmas would be complete with a Korean BBQ dinner with my daddy! 

With crunchy wrapping paper littering the room floor to ceiling.. this little kitty got more excited then anybody. 

All through the house not a creature was stirring not even the-cat-who-thought-she-was-a-mouse! 

My mommy and me at the Trade Secrets dinner... not to mention some belly-dancing.. 

a requisite vintage postcard quality artsy photo of me and tree. 

awww my beautiful baby! 

me and my sassy christmas tree... 

The Kantian Dictum

"The Innocent eye is blind and the Virgin mind is empty."

I am neither nor therefore I must be sinful and dirty! Does this mean that airheads with bad vision are virtuous or something? I don't get it. LOL just kiddddddding!