Christmas would be complete with a Korean BBQ dinner with my daddy! 
12.26.2005
12.10.2005
The Kantian Dictum
"The Innocent eye is blind and the Virgin mind is empty."
I am neither nor therefore I must be sinful and dirty! Does this mean that airheads with bad vision are virtuous or something? I don't get it. LOL just kiddddddding!
11.11.2005
Am I good enough to write a philosophy essay?
I have to write an essay, an essay on philosophy and film more specifically I have to write an essay comparing and contrasting the views of Noel Carroll and Suzan Sontag on how best to define a film. Do you know what our first instructions were on writing this essay? Our first and most important rule was: "DO NOT COMPARE and CONTRAST!" Sigh. Some kind of sick joke you say? Why no, this is my life, try to bare with me.
11.05.2005
Sunset in the Morning
Her wings were already folding,
I kept asking;
but I remember when you were still rising
and she replied with her faint lips on my nose
I started softly crying;
I wasn't able to know you
this wasn't the way the warmth promised it to be
she whispered to me;
put on your coat darling the rain is coming
she grew smaller in the distance
still sparkling
my sunset in the morning.
Copyright 2005 Aida
11.03.2005
So exams have finished
..and I can't stop thinking about how much has changed in a few years, and where is all the time going? It's like I don't have any more time to really do anything. So now I worry will I be able to do everything I wanted to do? Will I be everything I wanted to be? I'm 24, how scary. Didn't we all imagine ourselves a certain way at a certain age, doing certain things? I guess I've done alot of things, more than some people ever thought of doing, but am I going forward towards where I really want to be? I see other people doing things like school and looking for the 9-5 but I'm not sure thats for me, it just doesn't seem satisfying allthough I'm sure its nice to have a comfortable living, with benefits, and holidays, maybe a pension or something but cmon thats BORING.
..and then I think.. maybe boring is good, maybe we should all be so lucky to have it that easy; maybe im overshooting, overlooking all the important things.
10.17.2005
Can't STOP studying... MUST beat evil exam
So I've been thinking.... why why WHY do universities think its somehow beneficial or if in anyway realistic to schedule all exams within the same god damn two weeks??!?!? What does acing exams that are back to back to back during school really mean? Does it mean that your a genius? that you have a knack for memorizing theory? That you have a photographic memory or does it mean that you so badly want to work at Company XYZ that you will prove it by shunning all of societies normalities and turn into an android that lives breathes and eats textbooks, screams at any human-not-currently-turned-into-a-zoid-because-they're-not-in-university for making so much sound when they blink! If this blog doesn't make any sense or if you notice that my spelling and grammer is for junkies then know that at this point I am no longer of the living. I am like Algernon in Flowers for Algernon, the tissue in my brain has turned into overcooked spaghetti, I cannot recite my ABC's, just like an auto-immune disease the cells in my brain have turned on me, they are no longer listening when I read, instead they're flat-lining with every word I'm saying, each and everyone of them is leaving, like some sick LSD trip my brain is succumbing to the blissful side of unlearning.
...and so you will find me praying that when I see the questions and I start writing... a little spark will ignite my memory and volumes and volumes of knowledge, brilliant, intelligent, insightful -knowledge will just pour forth and fill in the voids of all the potholes the evils made and save me from falling into the blackness that is waiting to eat all the little children, who are so bravely fighting, reading, writing.
10.02.2005
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