I have to write an essay, an essay on philosophy and film more specifically I have to write an essay comparing and contrasting the views of Noel Carroll and Suzan Sontag on how best to define a film. Do you know what our first instructions were on writing this essay? Our first and most important rule was: "DO NOT COMPARE and CONTRAST!" Sigh. Some kind of sick joke you say? Why no, this is my life, try to bare with me.
Her wings were already folding,
I kept asking;
but I remember when you were still rising
and she replied with her faint lips on my nose
I started softly crying;
I wasn't able to know you
this wasn't the way the warmth promised it to be
she whispered to me;
put on your coat darling the rain is coming
she grew smaller in the distance
still sparkling
my sunset in the morning.
Copyright 2005 Aida
..and I can't stop thinking about how much has changed in a few years, and where is all the time going? It's like I don't have any more time to really do anything. So now I worry will I be able to do everything I wanted to do? Will I be everything I wanted to be? I'm 24, how scary. Didn't we all imagine ourselves a certain way at a certain age, doing certain things? I guess I've done alot of things, more than some people ever thought of doing, but am I going forward towards where I really want to be? I see other people doing things like school and looking for the 9-5 but I'm not sure thats for me, it just doesn't seem satisfying allthough I'm sure its nice to have a comfortable living, with benefits, and holidays, maybe a pension or something but cmon thats BORING.
..and then I think.. maybe boring is good, maybe we should all be so lucky to have it that easy; maybe im overshooting, overlooking all the important things.
